Living in a Safe Place

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March 30, 2020

9:43 p.m.

Never in a million years would I’ve ever thought the place and space I would grow up in as a child would be full of broken safety. I spent a lot of time trying to find my place in the world. I never felt like I fitted in anywhere. I was always the outsider in the group. I had a hard time making friends even before the abuse happened. I made up in my mind that I was just different instead unwanted. I just wanted to feel safe and that’s what happen when I started writing my feelings down on paper.

I wrote in the dark with tears stream down my face many nights. I allowed my journal to keep my secrets feelings of suicide and low self-esteem so I could sleep at night. I continued this practice well throughout my teenage years to cope with my abuse. I couldn’t trust anyone so I decide to trust me and the way I showed trust to myself was through my nightly writing session in the dark.

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When I became an adult I transitioned into writing songs and poems to continue to strengthen this very safe place I had created for myself with the support of God’s hand on my shoulder for reassurance that things would get better just keep writing yourself those letters. It has been a pivotal part of my healing process that I continue to do each and every day. Although I have come a long, long way from when I first started this journey I still have some work to finish. I hope your safe place is still safe for you as well.

With lots of love and a big hug,

Lakell

Salute to the Savior Sunday

1/21/21:30pm

Heavenly Father,

Thank you for making this day possible for me to see.

A day of hope and rest in knowing all that I want and desire will soon come to pass.

I will remain grateful in this journey because I can finally see what is next for me.

Your belief in my ability to walk ahead in places I haven’t seen yet has strengthened my faith to know only¬†YOU have the power to decided whether a door opens or closes.

I finally believe in ME.

Thank you Lord.

In Your Name,

I Pray

AMEN

 

Salute to the Savior Sunday

11/19/2017
10:33 am

Heavenly Father,

Thank you for waking me up this morning.

I am grateful that you saw fit for me to continue your work today, Lord.
I wake up today with a clear mind, soul and heart
which will make room for the thoughts, feelings and love you have in store for me today.

I surrender to your Will today Lord.

Thank you for choosing me to carry the light.
Although sometimes I doubt I am worthy of such an assignment
you remind me that I was called.

Lord, please cover my readers as they travel through out their day.
Bless every step and speak to their hearts right now , Oh Lord.

In your name I pray,
AMEN